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I have been a lurky on this forum for a while and I really need some help.
I think if I start from the beginning then it will be really clear how bad things are.
I used to live my brother till last year. He has always been into wargaming and
I guess I liked spending time with him so I got into it to.
Iím not very pretty and Iím quite fat. This means I have never spent any time with
a boy. When I was 13 I started getting really bad spots all over my face and neck and down my chest so boys donít even look at me.
Anyway my brother always made time for me and we would spend lots of time together playing games, I think it was the only time when we spoke about our feelings. I think it was the only time when he was relaxed and he would ask how I was doing and probe me if I seemed upset about something.
After a few years he met a girl and they started going out. That meant I was left on my own a lot.
I started to play warhammer 40,000 on my own. It wasnít as much fun but I really missed my brother.
Then I left school at got a job working at McDonaldsí (I still work there now). I was o.k at first I guess. But I told a few of the boys I play wargames thinking they would like that. But they teased me for months about it.
And none of the girls would talk to me, they all went on about make up and hair cuts, they would say really horrid stuff about me cause I have only used make up once and that went really wrong and I cut my own hair with my brothers clippers.
I felt really upset so I spent more and more time on line, I even got a boyfriend from Poland (we havenít met yet, but we have been a couple for almost a year now and I really love him so much).
I start to use the Games Workshop on line store a lot. Plus Ebay, I love buying myself presents. It cheers me up loads.
But after a while I had to stop cos I ran out of money. I Borrowed loads of my brother and spent all my overdraft on a new sisters of battle army. I even got a credit card with a £1,000 limit and I spent it all in less than 15 minutes on the Games Workshop on line store, I decided I wanted to start a Dark Elder and a Necron a Chaos army.
That was like six months ago. I only earn about £300 a month and I canít afford to pay my credit card and my over draft.
I have to hide the letters under my mattress and try not to think about them. I told my boy friend (Miro) that he can come to England and live me if he helps me pay off my bill. Plus I read a post by Boomer about selling miniatures so Iím going to sell them all on Ebay and get all my money back for them, then I plan on starting a space marine army cos they are really cool.
My brother got married last month and I never see him now, well he did come round last weekend to play a game,
but he left after a couple of turns cos I could help but sulk, its not my fault really. He knew that if he married his girlfriend I wouldnít be happy, cos that would mean he would spend less time with me. I think I upset him when he said something about having a baby, I said some mean stuff about his wife and then I wouldnít speak to him. He wonít reply to any of my texts and I know he is not busy cos I text him late at night so itís not like he is at work or anything.
I just donít know what to do. I love my boyfriend so much, but I scared too, because Miro has only seen a picture of
a model I got off the internet, not a really picture of me. And I think he will go off me if he sees me.
Plus I really want a new space marine army, I have it all planned what I want. I think it will cost me about £400 or so but thatís o.k I guess cos I know I will stick with this army and it will be great when finally get to go to the warhammer 40,000 tournament after I learn all the rules from the new rule book I got last week.
I think I should buy my new army first then worry about paying off my credit card. That way I can have my new army and then afterwards I can buy some more stuff.
I guess what is really making me sad is the fact I wish I had £400, does anyone else have trouble deciding what army they should get next?
Well thank you for reading my post.Plus I read a post by Boomer about selling miniatures so Iím going to sell them all on Ebay
Do you plan to sell your models painted or unpainted?
To answer your question, no I never have trouble which army
to pick next, I started with Ďnids and my second army is also Ďnids.
Well they will be converted Humanids.
So I guess Iím pretty easy to please.
I AM BOOMER!
This looks like a troll. But for the sake of argument I'll answer anyways.
If you can't afford it dont buy it. Play at your local store and loan armies and/or use proxy armies till you can afford to buy your own models.
never over charge a credit card like EVAH!
Stay cool, find a better job earn more money and never empty your wallet playing 40k. Other things in life are moe important like food and paying your rent.
and stay away from teh foul emperor. Nids are more fun.
Process is right.
By writing that post you've admitted there's a lot of things in your RL that are...messy. First you better fix them. I've been hiding bills to and I know that it's really the crappiest way to deal with them. You better start paying them of, even if it's just a little at a time.
Then you nkow you have to tell your BF about the pic, before he comes to see you, right?
Then, just do it.
And before you have delt with your RL, don't dream away into the 41st millenium. WARNING YODA-WISDOM: "...faster is the darkside". Sure, escapism is always tempting inwhatever form or shape it comes, but it is not good when it keeps you from doing what you should.
Oh...did I say that?
Darn, I have to go to my RL, plenty of things that needs to be done.
I wish you the best of luck...though luck has nothing to with it.
me smelleth troll
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youve been legal pwned
The people who respond to this seriously are better people than myself. I simply see a troll.
I have to ask but what is a troll?
I AM BOOMER!
Troll (Internet) - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia
more comrehensive explanation than I can type here.
Well now that I know what one is, I'd have to say troll. this isn't an oprah forum.
I also sense a troll. Yet a very odd one.